EGO DRAMA.

Smile. That is the first thing that I do when he came and approached. A great hair, nice set of teeth, a sweet smiling on her face owh I thought he could be the one. Then just after he approached, I'd replied it back. And begin the our relationship as a friend.

We chatted most of the night. Getting to know each other, eager to know each daily activity. Seems like we concerned about each other. Everything was getting smoother day by day until we exchange the phone number, everything was getting closer. And chatted was not stopped there, we continue our conversation through sms and caling each other.

After a few months knowing each other through phone and internet, we've made a deal to meet up. It was the first time, I drove to his house and fetched him. I was in a car in front of his house, when the time I saw him, I felt so happy. And we hanging out drive around his living area. We laughed together in a car about teasing about each other, yeah I can't forget that moment. I'd remembered I stopped by at Petrol Station to take a shower while he was waiting me outside and after that we went to Mamak and had a drink and talked.

I can't tell you more about this, but I just want you to know, he was a good friend, a good listener, a good person, very soft when he talked to me, have a sense of humor even when he was angry and even mad at me. Never dissapointed in making me laugh. But all this happiness doesn't stand forever.

I was ego. And my ego came with a jealousy. We had just a little problem. I was stupid I couldn't compare between ego and mad. He said sorry for twice and I still keep my ego up. Until a few days come along we didn't talked to each other. I thought that he might have other friends or other PLU, yes it was true. I didnt mean to stalked but I saw it in his profile. So i've made my decision, he doesn't need me. Although if he still need me, maybe i will be same like other. I want more, means here I want to be special.

I can't ask for that. So, the best way to settle this down is, I ignored him. From phone number, ym and FB, I rid it all off. Think that I easily done that? NO ! It so much pain for done that. You, you still lingering in my mind. But I had to take a step, for you to get a better life and friends around. I just dont want you to get tired treating my bad behaviour.

I wish I could turn back time a fix all of this but, hurmm.....ego :(


ps : I miss you. And I need to talk to you :(

Bapak lama.

Damn, aku rasa dah lama gile tak update blog ni. Last entry aku update aku rasa hari raya ke-7 aritu (refer the previous entry's title).Hurmm sorry la aku bukan kaki blog. Ikut angin je ade mood update la tade mood tak update la. Ni naseb tengah bosan ni tetibe teringat pasal blog ni. So update jela ape2 pon.

Tengah dengar lagu ni tetibe cam nak update pasal fav artist dalam mp3 list aku ni. So pick up artist untuk entry arini ni ialah The Low Anthem. Pernah dengar? aku rase tak ramai yang tau pasal band ni. Quite unique band. And aku rasa lagu2 dia tak ramai yang akan layan bile dah dengar.

Aku suke dengar lagu ni time tengah sedih, termenung malam. duduk sorang2 dalam gelap, time hujan ke, memang terpedih hati kalau dengar lagu ni time-time tengah emo camtu. Tak caya, nah korang dengar lagu ni pastu. Sure meleleh air mata even tak paham lirik dia pon.

Dah raya ke 7 dah ni.

Salam semua.Hehehe gile lah, lame gile tak updated blog ni. Lat entry kat bawah ni aku ingat time merdeka aritu. Skang dah 17 haribulan. Sorry guys sebab lama tak updated. Quite busy dengan aktiviti luar la. Ni pon aku baru bangun tido tatau nak buat ape boring so updated la blog ni.

Well, Raya. Hurm cam biasa je bagi aku. Baju raya warna emas. Cuma yang best beraya tahun ni, aku first time beraya di rumah aku and first time dalam seumur hidup aku tak balik kampung time beraya. Hehe yela memandangkan kakak aku 2 orang dah ada anak masing-masing so secara automatik rumah kat Perak ni dah jadi kampung untuk dieorang. Lagipun dieorang sume tinggal jauh2.

Yang best raya tahun ni, aku first time beraya ke rumah ex school mate aku setelah 6 tahun lebih tak berjumpa. Dalam 10 rumah jugak aku pergi. 3 hari berturut-turut pagi petang siang malam. And then siap buat reunion lagi. Hehehe kire best la lepak sembang pasal sekolah dulu. Banyak perangai yang still tak berubah which is kadang-kadang best kadang-kadang it was so annoying. Biar la korang if perangai nak macam budak-budak pon. Rata-rata banyak lelaki yang camtu. Buat aku tak selesa lepak time reunion aritu. Kutuk-kutuk sesama sendiri and gelak pasal kelemahan orang masa time sekolah dulu, aku rasa itu bukan perangai yang baik. So time reunion aku banyak diam and sembang with girl. Bukan sebab aku nak menggatal tapi sebab dieorang suma dah matang. Last2 geng girls boleh plak sembang pasal kahwin. Aku trus mati kutu.

So gelak2 and sembang2 biase jela reunion tu.

Merdeka Night's out.

Woohaa !!! hehe dah lama rasanya tak update blog. Dah hampir lupa aku kat blog aku ni. Now pukul 10.15 pagi and aku still tak tidur dari semalam. Melepak kat Uptown Manjung sampai pukul 2 pagi then ride ke Ramli Tomyam bersahur.
Nak cerita sikit pasal bersahur awal pagi tadi. Since bulan puasa and working out, aku dah jarang makan berkali-kali dalam sehari. Hanya makan makanan berat pada waktu berbuka sahaja. So untuk bersahur menu yang selalu aku order ialah limau ais dan telur separuh masak. If lapar sangat, aku just order sup campur tanpa nasi. Ratah jela sup tu. So malam tadi aku order la menu tersebut. Air ok, sup ok, sampai ke telur separuh masak memang tak ok langsung. Sebab apa, sebab bile aku pecahkan telur tu, terus jadi telur rebus. Ko ingat aku datang kenduri kawin ke nak bagi telur rebus?

So after sahur, aku dan bebudak semua ke club house. Cam biasa aktiviti harian adalah bermain daun terup, bersenam dan work out, melayan movie, repair basikal dan selainnya tidur. Aku layan movie selalu tu yang dah pukul 10 lebih tak tidur-tidur lagi ni. Ok, aku rasa cukup cerita untuk aktiviti aku malam tadi. Cam dah jauh menyimpang je dari tajuk untuk entry blog aku kali ni hehe.

So merdeka, tak banyak yang menarik. Just ride with Nexscale Fixed Gear members yang jugak team aku. Seramai 21 orang ride, kira ramai jugaklah even ade yang tak dapat ride sebab celebrate dengan awek. Itu dieorang punya hal. Sebelum malam, siang harinya hujan. Aku dah bimbang takut hujan sampai ke malam. Alhamdullilah hujan sampai 10.30 malam je. Aku spend time malam tu chatting dengan Joy, kesian dia tak celebrate Merdeka sebab tade kawan ajak. Hehe kalau aku kat sane aku dah ajak dah ko kuar. So chatting sampai hujan berhenti. Aku pun kuar ride dalam kul 11.30. Ride ke Lumut je pun.
Ride was fun sebab ramai. Then kawan aku si Padel, kebetulan birthday dia pulak malam tu. Kira dia anak merdeka la konon. Dia tak ride sebab datang dengan awek dia. Si hafiz, abang tough kami dah beli 2 papan telur and sebungkus tepung. Punya la susah nak kejar die, last-last kene jugak. Memang teruk gila dia kena. Anyway Padel, Happy Birthday yang ke 22 tahun. You know I love you my bestfriend !
So ni ade pics malam tu. Enjoy !

New Addiction.

Do you guys ever heard about Sia Furler ? I bet not many of you never heard or know this person. A female artist from Australia. She is soulful jazz-styled pop singer and songwriter. I first know her by listening to her song called "Soon We'll Be Found" live on Jools Holland show I found it on Youtube. What a brilliant emotional song and lyrics.

I am attracted to her melodic sway kinda voices. Good on a record better still on the way she sang it on live. I think the way she done every of her show is quite similar to Bjork. Weird set of stage and colourful glow in the dark custom and clothes of every bandmate. Try to listen to this song. I am sure you'll love her song.

Sia Furler - Soon We'll Be Found

*try her other song which is my fav ; "Clap Your Hands" and "Buttons"

Kau punya pasal la Gerald Butler !

Okay, gua rasa sekarang ni baru betul-betul gua ada point untuk updated blog gua ni. Sebab point kali ni agak celaka and bikin gua panas sekaligus membuatkan badan gua binasa. Huyooo...cam power je ayat-ayat gua tadi. Lu orang tengok title blog gua kali ni macam gua marah gile kat Gerald Butler kan? Yes.....memang gua marah la cite die.

Disebabkan beria-ria sangat nakkan badan and lengan macam Gerald Butler, gua pon start untuk work out setiap hari, dengan azam dalam 2-3 bulan nanti gua dah fit. Tapi gua tak pergi gym pon, kerana memandangkan kawan sekayuhan berbasikal prewel mati atau bahasa Inggerisnya; "Fixed Gear", beliau mempunyai set work out dan sauna yang berharga ribuan ringgit. Mamat tu memang banyak duit, dan sangat baik. Okay beralih semula kepada cerita gua ni, so disebabkan ramai kawan-kawan gua yang mengidamkan badan yang sasa dan berotot macam Hafiz, so si Hafiz ni pon memindahkan barang-barangan exercisenya ke Club House bujang kami.

Hari pertama, memang kami jakun. Berebut-rebut nak main sampai bergaduh-gaduh. Aku plak buat dek sambil melayan movie. Ceh konon-konon tanak layan benda-benda dumbell, sauna, bar weight and macam-macam lagi. Tapi dalam hati bukan main seronok lagi nak cuba. Takpe, rilek dulu jangan tunjuk yang ko ni jakun jugak Amir. So gua mula memikirkan macamana nak buat agar budak-budak ni semua tak selalu bermain alat-alatan bersenam ni. Yela, asik dieorang je yang main nanti aku bila pulak. So gua dapat satu idea.

Gua bawak semua DVD movies gua kat rumah and bawak pergi ke Club House Bujang. Nampaknya plan gua untuk mengusir semua budak-budak dari alatan senaman berjaya. Semua melekat kat depan TV tengok movie. Apa lagi, gua terus la conquer alatan-alatan exercise tu semua. Power kan gua? hehehe...

Hari pertama main memang best. Paling habis semangat dah gua ingat time tu. Dengan keazaman yang tinggi untuk memiliki susuk tubuh mengiurkan seperti brade Gerald Butler, gua spent 2 jam bermain kesemua alatan-alatan tersebut. Habis senaman, gua hisap rokok, dah hisap setengah, tengok jam dah pukul 6.30 pagi. Duh !

Hari kedua, cam biasa dieorang tengok movies lain. Kali ni banyak yang tidur awal. Mungkin sorang-sorang penat sebab malam semalam dah stay sampai ke pagi tengok movie. Gua hiraukan semua tu sebab gua dah sampai berkerut dahi melakukan senaman. Sampai berkerut dahi? korang tengok semangat tak semangat ?! haaa....

Hari ketiga, hari yang paling babi bagi gua. Si Hafiz, memasukkan 40 kilo besi bodoh pada palang bar dan dengan selamber dia mengangkat kesemuanya sambil berbaring. Aku kira dalam hati, 20 kali dia angkat. Gua ingat selepas 2 hari gua gigih melakukan senaman tumpuan pada lengan tempoh hari gua dah boleh tapau dia. Dan dan pulak si Hafiz, "hah Amir, angkat pulak". Dengan muka paling rilek gua baring kat kerusi senaman tu, dan memegang bar yang menampung berat 40 kilogram, dan keazaman yang gua tanam dalam hati untuk tapau Hafiz, gua angkat. Jumlah berapa kali gua angkat ; 2 kali.

Terus sakit gila bahu, lengan, belakang lengan, rangka dada, tulang sokongan leher gua, dan macam-macam lagi bahagian abdomen badan gua yang sakit. Bayangkan, gua nak bukak baju pon sakit gile nak angkat tangan. Apatah lagi masa gua nak mengubah posisi semasa tidur. Gua menggedik-gedik tanya kat Hafiz, kenapa sakit, dia kata, "Biasa la mula-mula. Otot nak kembang. Nanti dah selalu main tak rasa sakit dah."

Senangnye dia cakap. Tapi jangan khuatir, gua tetap semangat walaupun sakit-sakit badan gua ni. Kejap lagi, gua nak gerak pergi ke Club House Bujang untuk melakukan senaman lagi. Kali ni, gua nak angkat yang 5 kilogram jela dulu. Hehehe.....



*gerald Butler la sangat kan.....

It's been a while...

Well guys, it's been a while I didn't updated anything in my blog here. It is because to update a blog I must have a mood and time, which is I dont have and feel it both. And right now, since I dont know what to do, let me add something to keep it update hehe.

Hurm so actually there's nothing to tell and type here. Life's been normal now, except for the career. Sometimes my mom asked me when I will find a job. I know I always asked her for the money but come on mama you got alot of money and I am your son, right? Hehe for the time being I still wasting my life-time now hanging out with friends, sleep all day long, riding a fixed gear, and etc. And it's been 3 month that I am jobeless. Ala baru 3 bulan belum 3 tahun pun, kan mama?

And there's a new interests : Work Out. Wooow! sounds very cool isn't? Yeah it's truely cool tho. My friend ; Hafiz who were responsibles to make me felt that the work out thingy is so much fun and interested. And he got a body full with muscle and perfect six pack. Damn you ! So that's my daily routine from 5 till 7 pm every fucking day baby.

In everything that I've been through and involved yet busy with, deeply in my heart there is still a love :) my Miley Cyrus and owh my new bestfriend. I heard peeps around him called him "Adam Lambert"? what? you got to be kidding me right? Well I miss you too Joy. Dont worry Miley Cyrus and Adam Lambert, I'll never forget about you both even for a second.

Well that's all about my life and all the things that went happened around since the last time I'd updated the blog. Stay on your seat, more post will be update soon. Thanks for reading.

*Devendra Banhart - Carmensita.